His exact words: "I highly urge you to forget running. Just forget it." After which he went on to tell me that there are other ways to exercise (I had to hold back from saying "I'm a personal trainer... no shit, dude") and even gave my husband and I information about where his colleague Freddie Fu and his team buy their bikes.
Forget running. Wait - WHAT??
He gave me a copy of my MRI report and pulled up the pictures. According to the scans, the radiologists report and his interpretation I actually have not one, but three stress injuries in my pelvis. I have a grade 2 reaction in the left pelvic wing, and stress reactions on either side of the pubic symphysis. My gluteus minimus is also strained (I'm guessing that's why I've felt like it was my piriformis bothering me all this time), and I have tendinosis in both hamstrings.
But all those things don't concern my doctor. His concern is the findings of high grade chondrosis/degenerative joint disease (osteoarthritis) in the left hip. Given my age, my past medical history, current injury status and progression, his opinion is that if I continue high impact activity (running) that I will need a new hip in no time. He has also referred me to another endocrinologist for a full workup to see if I have any other underlying problems contributing to all this. I haven't went into too much detail about it here on the blog but while I was pregnant with my second child I had a tumor in my thyroid. I chose to continue my pregnancy and allow the tumor to grow and had over half my thyroid removed after I recovered from my c-section. I had my hormones monitored for a time afterward, but everything seemed to be stabilized and I've just had regular appointments since. So, I guess things could have changed in that department. We will see. Maybe my blood clotting issues play into it? I have deficiencies in Protein C and Protein S, both of which contribute to my recurrent miscarriages. Again, I don't know.
I'm honestly just in "uhhh" mode right now. I feel fine! I'm kind of in shock. How can so much be wrong? How do I not know this? I still feel like I'm in the best shape of my life! I take Calcium and Vitamin D everyday. I take glucosamine and MSM every day. I am making the appointment with the endo today but I also want to get a second opinion from another Orthopedist. I'm not going to fish around for someone to tell me what I want to hear. Yes, I want to run. I'll even settle for run/walk. Or walk/run. I'll run 15 seconds per minute if I can still run. But I would also like to keep the hip God gave me intact. Joint replacement scares the shit out of me, even if it has become a more common thing these days. I'd like to avoid it.
I'm not angry. I think I've gotten all the anger out of the way in the prior weeks. I'm really just confused right now. I want answers. If I absolutely, 100% definitely have to "forget running", then ok. But I want to be certain that's not just a hasty judgement call. I'm no doctor, but personally it's not over until the fat lady sings. And I haven't heard a fat lady yet. I am going to do MCM no matter what. Last night my husband even told me that he will come out on the course and walk in MCM with me if that's what it takes. Thank goodness for races with long time limits..
So I'm in limbo right now. I have no idea until I get some more answers what will happen from here. I can tell you tomorrow I will be waking up at dawn and heading to the gym... just like I did today. But where my fitness goals lie a month, 3 months, a year ahead? I don't know now. I'm looking at bikes.. maybe I'll get into endurance cycling? Become a more serious yogi? Get into pole or lyra? Achieve the goal I had before of being a bodybuilder and competitive eater? :P Here is my MRI report if you're interested in reading it. Come be as confuzzled as I am... lol